To all that people who I can´t forget , but they can as I see

I´m feeling so lost .

First I was so happy about the message that told me that I can go to Midrasha again .

And I am till now.

And I gratefully thank all people who made this possible and kept me in mind .

BARUCH HASHEM!

BUt I kinda feel my life slipping away from me .

And I can´t handle with that.

I mean I won´t write what bothers me because some people could pút to much interpretation into that.

But I just hate loosing connection whether  it´s in school or in Private Life.

I mean it´s normal that if you don´t see people your connection to them gets worse than this person´s connection to someone he see´s 2 weeks in a row.

And now I am feeling so ... i don´t know leached out from life as whole .

I don´t like that feeling when you see everything slipping away , people forgetting how much u meant to them 

and people who are so close forgetting about missing u and loving to talk to u.

Yes maybe I just have a bad day and hormonal librations but i don´t feel good right now.

And I really wish now there would be someone telling me how much I mean to him and how odd life would be without me .

But I look around and just see emptiness.

The same emptiness  I see everyday.