These days there is so much Happyness around me .
And I am happy I am hyper happy for all that happy people .
But the more people find each other the morei feel lonely .
And i feel like there is missing something.
Sure there are many people now who I am friends with now , but what will be in a half year ?
Will they remember me ?
Will they still talk to me the way they do now ?

I am afraid .
Yes i really am .
All I want is to have people to love and be loved in return and the more I see love
the more I realize that love is all we need

And I just see people fading away from me and for a heart it´s hard to give persons up.
But I think I am strong enough ;)

Everything is for it´s time and HAshem knows how to lead us and what I need.
MAybe i needed this people more a while ago.

I have to be happy for them and yes I am mixed with a little melancholy these days.

<3 that

To the one who cherishes my words :*

Yes I do admire many people ,my close people .

And I can´t help myself loving my closest ones with my whole heart.

That´s what makes my Person , that is what makes me who  I am .

I love caring, i love leaving notes and making other things just knowing that someone will be happy about them

And i believe that this is enough reason to make them , and u will not die or loose ur lifetime if u just write someone something nice just to show that u are thinking about him and caring.

 At the moment I see my life changing more than ever , I see how I have grown and how others have.

There is still so much to say to write and to think of that my blog is not enough .

But the resumee of these last days is just :

Love the people who can love u back .

Because that feels better.

And look after ur words they could mean so much to others and so less to soemones.

And sure : Don´t forget to say I love u to people who cherish ur words.

And don´t forget who u are and how others could feel about your words.

Good Shabbes world.

I love u Mila <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

My one and only best of the best friends in the whole world.

WHat would I be without u ? 

Goya Festival :DD

I love u honeyyyyy

Shabbes is so near I can almost touch it.

And it will be an amazing Shabbos just us two in Osnabrooklyn like in the Old times we use to forget.

The good old times .

I miss them , just u and me and nothing else ( except from Ben and Jerry  love the two guys ;DD )

TAlking trough the nights , spacking and laughing 

U are my sunshineeeeeeeeeeeeeee ! 

And I love u more and more and more than anything ! :******

Attention

I wrote the beginning of this post for 20.000.000. times now and I can´t find the right words.

I just came from school and have to go in 10 minutes .

So this is what I thought about the whole day now.

And I have to say that I don´t know how to handle with that without my blog.

But I also know that people will understand what I mean.

But u know i don´t care.

I don´t care .

Yesterday was my Birthday .

It was nothing special , 

Some people said HAppy B-day just to be polite 

Some said it with their love warming me up 

And others didn´t say it at all.

They didn´t care.

Okay it´s just a Birthday and I am not trying to do a Drama of it .

But yes it is my Birthday .

And I believe that I deserve at least a happy b-day on my facebook wall.

No ?

I just can´t say how disappointed I am of some people .

Yes it´s just two words.

Just a little geste to show someone you care about him.

And why can people from some paralel classes do that ,

who I don´t even spoke to once?

Why ?

ANd why are u pretending on being my friend and want me to be ur´s 

when u just forget or better don´t care about my B-day ?

I can understand that people have no time 

The time is running and there are things more important than some 16 year old´s

But why don´t u understand what that means to me ?

Why don´t u think about that I could be sad ?

O.K let´s be honest u don´t think anything.

ANd maybe it´s better this way .

Everybody has to learn what Disappointment means.

But I am speechless.

Iam just speechless.

It´s just that little bit of attention .

Why can I put effort in making u happy `?

Paper,Time, Effort and Love .

And now i understand that it´s waisted it´s waisted.

SO yeah u know maybe i should keep my heart and my attention to people 

who really care and think about me .

ANd don´t just tell so , when they need u.

I sure love u , if i didn´t it wouldn´t hurt me that much it does.

And i´ll try to do not care.

I´ll try .

Birthday wishes

Yes today is my Birthday :))

But i have to say every year it loses more and more of it´s magic and now I don´t even care about the presents .

I just love this day because it shows me that I am loved , even just a tiny bit.

And all I want for myself next year is just two things.

Love and Faith.

Because I belive that tha´s the two main things about life.

I hope that my faith into the King of the world won´t ever disappear 

and he will know what´s right and what´s wrong for me.

That I will go my way .

And always feel his loving help in my heart and in my mind.

And I want that there will always be people loving me 

accepting me and believeing in me .

Because human can´t survive without love .

And I belive that all the other things in life will come with this two 

and that I will neer forget who I am and who I wanna be .

For that I can make my dreams come true and live my life  like Rebekka Averbach.

Grow in Spirit and grow in heart and always be myself .