Attention

I wrote the beginning of this post for 20.000.000. times now and I can´t find the right words.

I just came from school and have to go in 10 minutes .

So this is what I thought about the whole day now.

And I have to say that I don´t know how to handle with that without my blog.

But I also know that people will understand what I mean.

But u know i don´t care.

I don´t care .

Yesterday was my Birthday .

It was nothing special , 

Some people said HAppy B-day just to be polite 

Some said it with their love warming me up 

And others didn´t say it at all.

They didn´t care.

Okay it´s just a Birthday and I am not trying to do a Drama of it .

But yes it is my Birthday .

And I believe that I deserve at least a happy b-day on my facebook wall.

No ?

I just can´t say how disappointed I am of some people .

Yes it´s just two words.

Just a little geste to show someone you care about him.

And why can people from some paralel classes do that ,

who I don´t even spoke to once?

Why ?

ANd why are u pretending on being my friend and want me to be ur´s 

when u just forget or better don´t care about my B-day ?

I can understand that people have no time 

The time is running and there are things more important than some 16 year old´s

But why don´t u understand what that means to me ?

Why don´t u think about that I could be sad ?

O.K let´s be honest u don´t think anything.

ANd maybe it´s better this way .

Everybody has to learn what Disappointment means.

But I am speechless.

Iam just speechless.

It´s just that little bit of attention .

Why can I put effort in making u happy `?

Paper,Time, Effort and Love .

And now i understand that it´s waisted it´s waisted.

SO yeah u know maybe i should keep my heart and my attention to people 

who really care and think about me .

ANd don´t just tell so , when they need u.

I sure love u , if i didn´t it wouldn´t hurt me that much it does.

And i´ll try to do not care.

I´ll try .