So much to write about.
I was on a Zwst Machane which was really cool but SO not my Life .
And now it feels so funny how that really non-religious event brought me closer to my faith .
Shabbes : You look around and everyone sits there typing sms or playing some game on their cell phones .
And u ask urself why don´t they see Shabbes from ur perspective ?
Why don´t they feel like it was the day of love the day of joy ?
WHy don´t their hearts beat higher when they hear Lecha Dodi ?
It is so sad. 
I met two girls who i knew from Am Echad this year .
Two really cute 12 year olds i really had missed .
And one of them leaned over to me at Shabbes and told me that she feels so sorry for me not beeing jewish and that she sees how much it means to me and how i love judaism that she feels sorry that she can´t give me her Judaism.
That really brought tears into my eyes .
She´s such a kitty.
And as we were the only who washed their hands before the bread we went together.
They didn´t know anything bout Jewishkeit before that summer .
And in the moments i convince them to go and wash their hands with me and from their sweet mouths comes the bracha i just feel like all my wishes came true and it´s the most beautifull moment of my life .
And it breaks my heart that they don´t love it like i do .
I want to see their eyes sparkle when they talk about Shabbes .
And their heart jumping out hearing 600 people singing Shma .
How I love that , my love could light up the whole world.
But there are people and institutions that won´t let me ,
and it´s sad , not for them but for the thousands of jewish children .




Our train was delayed and i was truly afraid that we would be late for Shabbes .
But then i said to Mila : We have to pray .
So she started to say Shma and the train started rolling .
CAn U imagine ??
In that freaking moment .
Thank u HaSHem for that . 
That u show us your face of glory in moments we need u .
Because all I wanted was to see Sophie .
Dear i hope u read that .
I miss u and it was so cool to just walk around and talk to you that i miss u even more now.
I hope the Shabbes plans will work out.
Because there is still so much to tell and to hear .
I love u so so so much like just few people .
I wish u everything good in that world and I believe u deserve it !
So just be happy and continue beeing u !


And it feels so bad to come home from any trip like that .
Just people around u that are cold , cold ,cold.
No warmth in their eyes or hearts , at least not for me .
And everything i can do is just try to smile to everyone and warm them up.
Last evening i thought bout that .
Isn´t that what Shma says?

And these words that I command you today shall be in your heart.

V'shinan'tam l'vanekha v'dibar'ta bamAnd you shall teach them diligently to your children, and you shall speak of them

b'shiv't'kha b'veitekha uv'lekh't'kha vaderekh uv'shakh'b'kha uv'kumekha when you sit at home, and when you walk along the way, and when you lie down and when you rise up.

to show off HaShem´s love everywhere and make the world a better place , on the street at home and in school and everywhere .
So let´s try maybe we can let the world shine !