The test : called life

My whole life i keep saying to myself:
HAshem is just testing you.
He knows you can do it.
It will make you stronger.

But sometimes I want to answer :
Hashem , please, i don´t wanna be stronger .
I don´t wanna be brave.
And I don´t want to have tests which are harder, just because you know that I am strong I can pass them.

We have to have trust and believe that everything is for the best.
But sometimes the more you look on things the less good things you find.


I couldn´t ever chose if I want to be a strong personality.
Maybe i wanted to be weak ?!
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