Can I cure myself ?
Is it that bad ?
I mean oh I always put my whole emotions and my whole heart in things I like.
And if I´m so into that I can´t handle with critics.
Oh man.
Today I had English lesson.
I love English and I love speaking English .
And that´s the only thing I can say I´m really good in and doing it with great pleasure.
But I always fight with all my English teachers.
I don´t even know why.
But with that new one I was pretty good.
But she always gets something to tell me I´m too bad .
Once she tells me I talk to long .
The other time she tells me she doesn´t like my behavious even if I´m just asked for a pen .
I mean she is nice and I don´t wanna say she´s not.
That type of super motivated blondy´s who want to tell us that we learn for us not for them.
Somewehere between in the end of their 20´s and in the beginning of their 30´s.
And all people like her .
But I don´t know why I can´t come along with her.
Maybe it´s not because of her , maybe it´s just because of my own emotional instability.
But I am f.cked up.
And today she looks at me and say´s :
`` I´m annoyed by ur Behaviour , Rebekka.``
And I did NOTHING!
I just look at her and say nothing even if I wanted.
And she say´s :
`` Just roll ur eyes that makes it better ``
CAn u believe that ??
I was so hyper inside I almost cried.
I just hate false judgements !
And she tells me I´m not good enough for being a very good English student.
But do I want too much , by being just very good in one damn thing in my damn life?
I work for it and I believe that I can and than some blondy-teacher comes across and tells me I can´t.
It´s just like if soemone beats u into ur face.
And say´s:
Wake up honey, u are just one of all these grey people whos simply exist .
U aren´t worth anything.
And that´s what noone understands it´s not that stupid English Great.
It´s just that I want to do or know something I could be proud of.
People say everyone´s got a talent .
But I´m jsut tired of searching.
I´m just tired and sad.
Sad that´s all.
But now I´m listening to that , that makes my life a little brighter.
You need not to be cured but your teacher who definitely has some nervous breakdown and does not know how to talk to the teenage kids. Man!
AntwortenLöschenYour English is just perfect for the 15-16 years old, what else does she need? But you know what? Teachers like that actually motivate us to show them how capable we are to learn more and truly rock the boat, you know. So cheer up, lovey, read and write more in English and don't mind what she says, the blondie B$%& :D