I am sick.
Not only my throat is hurting .
I am sick of life.
I am not a Emo-depressed one saying that life is soooo bad.
But I can´t do it anymore I am sick of being.
The funny one and talking about shit everyday.
I mean the society is so skin deep.
My parents are fighting .
My mum is nervous.
My mum broke her arm.
And i just don´t wanna hear it anymore.
I have to be there i have to listen all the time but I don´t want anymore.
Is it so wrong that i just wann be a child.
Life was so easy u were small and innocent.
U didn´t knew how cruel the world is .
My heart is breaking it´s opression.
I just wanna sit in my room and listen to Alina Orlova the whole damn day.
And I pray for everyday to end.
Gosh how could i come this far ?
Why do I unlearned to love life?
I just want to feel life again.
Without worries and don´t think what´s gonna be tomorrow and whati have to do to say .
I know it´s wrong .
but i can´t help myself just looking on my life being so meaning empty.
I hope it´ll pass .
I hope it´s just that stressed Rebekka sitting in her room and listening to melancholical music who is writing this.
Is to be free -
too much i want ?
Free like a bird.
Oh, darling, how I wish I was there with you. I would hug you and try to cheer you up. Sure it will pass. Life is definitely hard and depressing, and nothing is like being careless child. But Baruch Hashem, we have got HIM, you know. So we can always turn to Hashem, talk to Him and ask about more faith and trust, more strength and love. I am going through difficulties right now but I hope and believe that everything will work out with good results.
AntwortenLöschenI hope your mum will get well soon.
Remember, there is this big and crazy girl in Berlin loving you so much the world cannot contain :)